Day 4--The Call

So the dare today was to call Kendra and just ask her how I could support her. No other motives, just a nice call to let her talk and get clear. I called from work which was challenging for me. I don't like to take personal calls since others around me can hear me talking. I felt at times as if I was whispering...not really giving my all. The great part was that Kendra was very grateful I called and was thankful that I was interested in talking with her. She was able to plan the evening and we were able to get on the same page about our evening.
Unfortunately the wheels came off the bus around 6:30pm. We were scheduled to go on a date and I'm exhausted. I became very verbally short with Kendra, we've scrapped the date and I'm owning the fact that going through the motions of this love dare isn't meeting my wifes need to have quality time together. I've committed to getting up early this week which has led to me going to bed early. She just shared with me that she doesn't feel like I want to be with her and I'm not around. Sad proceedings. I'm off to talk and get clear. Lord help us.