Day 29---Love's Motivation

A quote from today's reading "The love between a husband and wife should have one chief objective: honoring the Lord with devotion and sincerity." Today's dare was to pray for Kendra in a specific way and then thank God for giving me priviledge of loving one special person...unconditionally. Seems to me this dare is very similiar to several other dares. Not that I'm getting tired of loving daring, but I wasn't feeling this one like I did when I was completing them the first time. I do understand that my motivation for love is so much stronger when I connect to God's love for me. I also understand that there are times when I don't feel like loving Kendra. My emotions and moods are not in a place where I'm drawn to be with her or show her tangible acts of love. So, what do I do on these days? Presently I would choose to spend more time by myself away from her. I would find some task to complete...sortof like journaling for the love dare. This morning is not going well as I'm not in the best space to be meeting the needs of my wife and children. I'm stuck far away from my motivating space where love originates...Christ's love. So, I'm leaving this now and will finish after I've gotten my heart prepared to be honest and show love again.Post Break: Alright, its been 14 hrs since my initial blog, and now I can say with some time spent at church, giving of myself to others, I've been able to right the ship and really enjoy loving Kendra. We went shopping for jeans today as our date and I just savored the opportunity to be with her. No other distractions, just us. We had a good talk about my desire for her to be a little more playful in our relationship and what that means to me. I think I've been struggling lately because she has been sick and feeling quite crappy. I've been supportive and giving her lots of physical touch and affection, but I love it when she gives a little spunky love back to me. Just a notice and she says that she will commit to working on this. As for me, I'm going to chose to love her in a way that is meaningful to her. So for this week she'll be getting massage everynight for 5 nights. Kind of like a little Gold celebration. She'll love it.